something just like this !

worked up and tired at the same time 
been making lazy choices lately 
constantly nagging parents online classes 
annoying education policies self-expectations 
forcing good and bad habits stupid teenage hormones 
giving less time to lovely hobbies 
reducing my number of smiles overthinking 
self-depreciation discouragement  quarantined tired eyes 
stupid friends surprise staying up late at night laying low 
unable to stand up to own my mistakes 
to battle, the consequences of my bad calls startled 
by my own personal flaws 
I lay down lay low 

But once when it's been enough when 
I after drowning my art and things, people that I love and the people who love me 
provided me with the miracle of life as I threw my arms and legs around to come back to the surface to breathe

realizing that I still need to grow   
today I chose to pick up myself 
Today I went back to the rooftop 
where I had not been for months 
for the same purpose which I had been there for several instances 
where I stood in my own shoes retracing my courageous steps
 moving backward and ahead in time simultaneously 

feeling the wind greet my skin
it tingles  
as the magic and life of the rushing wind makes every cell in the body feel alive 
as I saw a bird flying solo gracefully across the sky 
venturing into another horizon 

Becoming a different version of itself conquering it’s fears

flapping its wings upside down 
putting a great magnitude of effort into the subtle art of flying 
pushing the air around its wings upside down 
while I realized how we humans breathe 
taking in air and breathing it out 
as just like the bird struggles and  puts  tremendous efforts into flying 
each and every human being on this planet as draw every breath in and out 
struggles to survive if not in physical form then mentally 
to survive as each and every one of us dreams as he breathes and sometimes also screams 
as all humans struggle to achieve and with their achievements hit the height of the sky 
some struggle to get by but the matter of fact is all of them put their sincere efforts like the bird that flies gracefully in the sky,
as I promise you 

you need to you want to breathe 

you will move forward one step at a time 

your heart will soak courage 

just like your eyes soak the resplendent shine of the 

moon and the stars at night just like your heart absorbs 

the gushes of wind that rush across your body that bring you positivity that touches your soul 

 and will absorb hope just like the heart of a traveler absorbs rays of light after traveling through snowy lands the words the thoughts that rush through the trekker’s mind  like the wind while climbing  the mountain  the desires the passion the motivation that bursts into flames destroying downsizing dominating the fears  and every spark of the flame glowing like a live firefly emitting the lovely orange-yellow light as they keep moving the flame keeps us going warming our chest warming our heart where achievements are created while moving steeping ahead with fireflies stars shine above us and the on the path ahead of us during the night from the starry night sky,